happilyme

So, i’m off to a new college! and i’m loving it and completely enjoying everything! and a major good thing??? Im finally down to 157!!! i started off this journey at 183 and then to 170 and then 168 and finally i’m in the range i want to be in. its such a good feeling. i feel so much healthier and confident. i love this. I just want to get in the 140’s range and ill be perfect. i realized that obsessing over a diet and obsessing over what to eat and when i need to work out and all this had actually hindered me!! So i was mindful about what i ate and instead of religiously counting i moderated my calorie intake. if i had something horribly fatttening i would just eat better throughout the day. One day a sweet day, i could have sweets on say…. saturday. then no more for the rest of the week. I was a nice rewards system and i’m still using it to bribe myself. As for the exercise! i go to the gym sometimes and run, other than that i walk tons around this massive campus! I should workout more, but i will get there.One day.

blah!!!!! i have gotten down to past 175! around 171-174 throughout the day. Which is good!!! i finally found some pants i couldnt get into and squeezed into them and found them to be quite comfty. UGH!!! but i have been kinda slacking on my exercise!!! and some of my diet routine. for getting to eat the healthy stuff and getting things that just fill me up sorta and snacking again! eating to many sweets and soda!!! BUT I CAN RESTART!! NOTHING IS A FAILURE!!!!! i will just fall back and regroup!

YEAH!!!!!

~H~

ok… so i have been doing ok on my nutrition goals, i still forget to write them down on spark people or log them in. But im always mindful about that i eat. Its like a second nature thing. I allow myself a treat every other day and even though i crave more i can step back and say no. Very suprisingly! My fitness goals have taken off even though i hardly do anything in a structured fitness routine, i  work out in the yard doing yard work, i go to the river and walk up it against the current on a bet from a friend, i run around with the neighbors dog…. its so easy that i wonder why i havent done it before. But its not easy, its a constant struggle not to eat alot, not to sit and do nothing, i just dont want to get lulled into the space where im like ‘oh this is so easy i dont even have to think about it’ because its not….

~hannah~

So its been a while since i posted last…. i have been doing pretty well on the reduced to 1200- 1500 calorie diet thing…. i was down to 175!!! then back to 177 but it hasn’t passed 180 at all. and it wont if i have anything to say about it! I have a bad day and eat a bit more than i should have but not as much as i used to. although it (at the moment) goes between 175 and 177 its all good! i have been busy so i started my walking back up which i am very happy about! all in all everything is going very well.

~hannah~

so my walking and exercises kinda get pushed to the side, i live with my grandma for the summer and she is keeping me so busy with stuff!!!! outside work (cutting grass, weedeating, planting) and inside work like house cleaning. i have no time for walking but i feel so tired!! i am doing exercise in a sense (MANUAL LABOR!!!) and i get a nice tan to go with it. i still am going to walk atleast four times a week, so far so good!

I HAVE FINALLY NOTICED A CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!! i lost two pounds…….yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have been following the things on spark people and i finally got to see the scale dip below 180!!!!!! man im happy.

~hannah~

So it seems God is really trying to get my butt in shape. I was looking through my old journals and i had a habit of writing my weight down in the corner with little hearts and such, well two years ago i was down to a really healthy 155 pounds. i looked and felt good and everything was great and some how i fell back to 180. But it has done nothing but motivate me even more. and writing it down helps. Even if it does sound like i am harping on it. lol but im kinda of glad i seen that.

~hannah~

so while packing to get ready to go to college yesterday, i ran across my favorite little capris….to try them on and not even be able to button then. (last summer i could wear them fine) i was slightly disgusted with myself. BUT!!!! i have found my motivation. i have an outfit (yes those pants) that i will be getting into by the end of the summer, two months, and i WILL BE ABLE TO DO THIS!!!!! Because i love those little pants and i love my clothes that i cant fit into and i hate panting when i walk up stairs…… dang it. they are hanging right in sight where i can see them clearly, as a reminder. so, i am looking outside and its a bit wet here in GA but not raining so i can walk today. Excited about that. i decided that even if the weight doesnt come off but inches do, then im fine with that as well. i just want to be healthy. All of the commentors on my first blog….THANK YOU!!!! y’ll were right. so, today is officially D- day. where i restart my exercise and eating plan. beacuse i can either get into those cute little 12’s or go back to my 18 and 20’s. and trust me for me only being 5′2 every pound gained shows up bad. SO HERE WE GO!!! im excited a bit….. plus i cant get on the rock climbing wall at my next college (4 foot high!!!) with all this unwelcome jiggly can i? oh and thank you to alanasjourney for helping me realize that i do need to realize that it WAS ME that got this way, not my bodys fault….

i love this site…..

~hannah~

So i’m new new to this site and so far i like it.I have a question… has anyone ever felt like they were exercising and still gaining weight!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like that now! I go walking in the morning and I have modified my eating and such, but i am some how gaining a little weight, it has only been about maybe 5 pounds but it still freaks me out! i am 5′2 at 180 pounds. I look at the scale and i get depressed because i feel like im doing so much but not getting anything to bulge! i just want to call it quits but i know that is the completely wrong thing to do!!!

~h~